Father’s Day Early

It had to come early for me – and probably a slew of other dads – because my just-turned-teen son went to Uplift at Harding University at noon today. So he gave me a gift and a card at breakfast.

More specifically: a NASCAR card reminiscient of our new favorite movie, Cars, and some new togs to wear on vacation in a couple of weeks. I imagine his mom – who is teaching in Dallas this weekend – had a hand in that selection. But he’s already e-mailed from the student center three times.

My 10-year-old daughter was a trooper this afternoon, tagging along with me at work on a rainy Saturday and even helping here and there. I felt like I owed her big-time, and McDonald’s was a disappointment when she saw the sign in the play area requiring socks of my barefoot, besandaled cherub. So we went home and called and called until we found a family willing to turn loose of their daughter on Father’s Day Eve to sleep over tonight. (Now I owe them big-time.)

Yet, not even the gift and card she’s holding until tomorrow morning will beat a few minutes ago when she came out to me in my hobby closet off the garage and told me – for no reason; no request, no beg, no plead – “Dad, have I told you today that you’re the best daddy in the whole world?”

I gave her a big, squeezy hug and told her that she says it even when she doesn’t say it.

“Huh?” she said, and I was a little too choked to explain.

It’s really easy to manage being a pretty good dad when you’ve got the greatest kids in the world.

My Current Verse

Do you have one? A favorite, angelic verse that speaks – no, sings – to you; that lulls you to sleep at night and whispers you awake in the morning again? That sometimes turns into an almost-Satanic verse by shouting at you when you’re wearily burying your head in your pillow and trumpeting you out of bed before dawn?

Right now, my bedevilling, blessing verse is I Peter 4:8:

Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.

I’m the first to admit I don’t fully understand the implications of those 14 words. I know they’re important, because it’s the second time Peter says many of them in the span of one letter.

I know they’re important, because they’re preceded by the phrase “Above all”.

I know love is important, because that’s a word that personifies God.

I know “each other” is important, because our mutual love and unity was uppermost in Jesus’ thoughts when praying the night before He gave His life for us.

I know love obscures a lot of sin. Love makes it easier to ignore my kids’ tiny crimes and microscopic misdemeanors when I want them to be perfect like I can’t be.

I know God’s love has the power to render it invisible, washed clean away by the sacrificial blood of Christ and rinsed for good measure by the baptism that mirrors it.

I know the toughest word in the whole sentence is “deeply,” because it’s easy to love (puppies can do it); it’s easy to prioritize (bureaucrats can do it); it’s easy to hide sins (politicians and celebrities do it all the time) but to do anything deeply is bound to be hard.

Study. Believe. Care. I can do all that, and sometimes deeply. But to love deeply, especially those imperfect folks who make up my surround of “each others,” is not easy.

What I really don’t know is how.

And then I remember:

  • We learn by hearing.
  • We learn by repeating.
  • We learn by watching.
  • We learn by imitating.
  • We learn by doing.

Well … right now, I’m only at the repeating stage with this verse.

But as I keep learning it, its voice is growing softer; it’s losing its horns and starting to grow white wings.

Cars: A Mini-Review

I don’t know how a movie could be any more chocked (forgive the pun) with Christian values than this four-years-in-the-making Disney-Pixar reunion movie. It survived their breakup; it may have helped nudge them toward reconciliation.

Because that’s part of what it’s about. That, and the value of friends and community. The treasure of small-town heritage. And the lure of the open road. (Jesus spent a lot of time on it, you know.)

Oh, and it’s also about selfless sacrifice.

All wrapped in a colorful eye-candy shell with a fast-paced, gorgeously-animated package and a killer soundtrack, including a score by Randy Newman.

And there’s a scene with tractors that will have you rolling (okay, no more puns) on your back with laughter. But I don’t want to have to post a plot spoiler here.

Just go see it. We went to see it Saturday night. My 13-year-old son liked it so much that he went to see it again Sunday night with a friend’s family.

I would have, too.

And, as with all Pixar movies, don’t leave before ALL the credits have rolled!

Small Notes from a Smaller Mind

  • Last week, some scientific research team somewhere announced their findings that road rage may be largely caused by hereditary factors. I’m not scientist, but my anecdotal research indicates that road rage is largely caused by other drivers doing stupid things which threaten your life and the lives of your passengers.
  • Ann Coulter recently released a book called Godless which has already wasted more ink and pixels on criticism than it could be worth. But if they redesigned the cover, leaving out the subtitle between “Ann Coulter” and “Godless,” I think the cover, at least, might be more accurate.
  • When my kids look back on this part of their history, will they talk about Bono the same way my generation talks about Mother Teresa?

A New Command

“A new command I give you …”

Perhaps John sat up from reclining against his Master’s chest to look Him in the eye. Maybe Matthew made a mental note that he needed to remember this and write about it later. Then he forgot.

“… Love one another …”

Maybe the thought raced through all the minds of the eleven: Wait, that’s not new! That’s in Leviticus! You told us it was the second-greatest commandment after loving God with all our being!

Then the Master finishes His sentence: “… as I have loved you.”

Did they all think: Master, no! You say it’s time to be glorified; that you’re going away and we can’t follow; and … and you’re leaving us with this impossible new command? ‘As I have loved you’?

Though they have seen Him live this command every day, they will sometimes fail to obey it, but for the most part they will succeed.

So will we.

And someday we’ll join them in praise of the One who led a life of love; who went first where we have followed; who makes all things new.

The Post I Didn’t Intend to Write

One of the most profound bits of advice I have encountered is in Darryl Tippens’ new book Pilgrim Heart: “Let go.”

He is careful to explain that the person who gave it to him was not advising letting go of the end of the rope he found himself clinging to, but to let go of the frustration, helplessness, and overwhelming imperative need for self-sufficiency in a predicament beyond his control.

Let go. And trust God. Empty yourself.

Go kenotic, not psychotic.

What I wanted to do with this post is not what needs to be done. So as I put my fingers to the keyboard, with a good warmed-over anger seething and the eloquent riposts flowing and the self-righteous indignation honed to a slicing edge …

… unbidden, the words “Let go” came to my mind and heart from the pages of Pilgrim Heart I had read again earlier this week.

Let go.

Not Obi-Wan’s “Let go of your feelings”; not Jean-Luc Picard’s “Let the past be the past”; not the Beatles’ “Let it be.”

Just “let go.”

Why is it so hard to let go?

Why is it so hard to trust the One who formed you in the womb, has seen to your every need and perhaps permitted too many of your desires, and has sent His own dear Child to take the blame for your selfishness when your desires became more important than others’ needs?

Well, here it is: the post I didn’t intend to write.

I won’t regret it later, like the one I had to remove some time back.

You won’t know for sure what it was that I did intend to write, because I won’t post it later.

Because, for this one time, I just let go. And you know what?

It really does feel better.

This Goes Against My Nature, But …

… I am going to post a link to a page of last week’s online bulletin of a church in my city which, at the very bottom, features a mention of the Arkansas Shepherding Conference to be hosted at my home church July 27-29:

Bulletin 6-4-06

I am going to take an opportunity like this to thank the minister there, who edits the linked bulletin, to take the time and space in his publication to let others know about the conference.

I am going to express my appreciation to him for naming my church, rather than simply referring to it as a large metro church on the westside (as he has occasionally done before) so that people who read his article will know where the conference is taking place, as well as when, and who will be speaking there.

I am going to compliment him on his zeal for the Word, his protective oversight of the flock he serves, and his utter honesty in expressing his anticipation of the event.

I am going to do so because I have come to believe that for him – and many other people of similar persuasion – to do otherwise would be to violate conscience, and that violating conscience is a serious offense before God even when the matter is not an issue to the Creator of the universe.

I will not urge him to attend, and to invite his three elders and their wives to attend, because – though it might confirm what he anticipates – for them to do so after reading his article could be construed as an act of defiance on their part, or a violation of their own consciences.

I will not try to persuade him or them that the only subject that the speakers have been asked to address is the pursuit of a more Christ-like model of shepherding.

I will not seek to argue about the value of change, or of the agents who propose it, or of the absolute necessity of ongoing change – repentance – in the life of a follower of Christ.

I will not comment about fellowship and eternal consequences, nor quote a lot of scripture that I feel is relevant. Nor will I presume what any group of elders supports. Nor will I pronounce anyone doctrinally healthy or unhealthy, since I do not hold a doctoral degree in medicine or theology.

I am simply going to post the link, with my gratitude and compliments.

I am going to do all of this.

Some day.

But not today. Because I am not yet that loving; not yet sufficiently conformed to the nature and image of Christ; not yet convinced that I am perfectly qualified to be the perfect judge of the efforts of imperfect people who are trying to serve God.

Some day – when it does not go against my nature – I will do these things.

Flamingo Light of Grace: The Sequel

A few months back in my post The Neon Flamingo Light of Grace, I happened to mention that my 13-year-old son Matthew had purchased with his own money a pretty expensive T-rated X-Box game titled (I think) “American Army.”

He did so after consulting with me, and listening to the reasons why I don’t approve of such games, and exercising the option I gave him to buy it anyway. He was wise to play it in his room only, where his younger sister Laura wouldn’t be affected by it. (And in that previous post, he redeemed my opinion of his choices by buying a Neon Flamingo Light of Grace for her after I had taught an exceedingly tough and somewhat cruel lesson in thrift to her.)

Well, the 10-year-old sister he loves to taunt is in camp this week … and the pool where we have our membership is closed due to rain … and was closed yesterday because it was Monday … and he was sounding pretty bored when I met him for lunch.

So I took him to Game X-Change so that he could look over the selection. He had brought a couple of his games with him to see if he could trade them, and as we approached the counter he showed me the one he had carried underneath the outdated race-driving game case. Sure enough, it was “American Army.”

He traded them in for a newer race-driving game.

And the Neon Flamingo Light of Grace?

It’s in his room now.

Laura gave it back to him as an apology for taunting him beyond his patience … because she knew he liked it.

I am so proud of my kids.

Revisiting the Affirmation

It’s been a year, and a little more.

Do you remember A Christian Affirmation?

Did it rock your world? Did you rush to sign? Did you hold your breath to await the fallout? Did you pray that it would succeed in strengthening and uniting the fellowship of the Churches of Christ? Was it worth the price of a full-page ad in The Christian Chronicle and of a Web site?

It didn’t do much for me. I quietly sent my own response, and the signers of A Christian Affirmation were kind enough to post it on their site:

I would much rather have seen a document proposing the convening or committing of the best minds, hearts, prayers, wealth and other resources among us toward the proposition of inspiring, training and leading members of the body of Christ in telling His story to people who have never heard it nor perceived their own need for the benefits it offers.

That would be a project worthy of the leadership who signed “A Christian Affirmation” and of the approval and affirmation of many, many Christians. I believe it would have greater potential in motivating and uniting than this document’s ability to do so. However, I will borrow the wisdom of Gamaliel regarding the document: if it is of men, it will come to nothing; if it is of God, it would be pointless to oppose it.

Somewhat less gracefully, I posted a response some have felt was a parody of the Affirmation called One Christian’s Affirmation, and I have no quarrel with that word to describe it.

My opinion hasn’t changed, upon rereading the document more than a year later – though I am less proud of what I was feeling when I posted that second response. In fact, the whole idea has become a bit repellent to me: the idea of creating documents of policy and minimal requirement, full of vague wording that everyone can agree upon for the sake of everyone being right together and therefore united.

The whole value of having varied opinions on matters of opinion; of gaining perspective and strength through dialogue; of being blessed and matured by the interchange of ideas … is simply lost in such an approach.

I was curious to see if hundreds had “signed” the document by e-mail since its inception. I counted 53, in addition to the 24 original signatories, some of whom are siblings in Christ whose words and works have blessed me.

(Some, whose signatures there were a surprise to me.)

So maybe I was right about it having little value in forging unity.

Maybe they were right about it having great value.

The Affirmation did provoke us to briefly dialogue about some things … maybe until the reality descended upon us that virtually no one outside of Christ and very few people who have called on His name know or give a flying hoot about our fellowship’s “distinctive” opinions – or our petty squabbles and divisions – except those who cite them as evidence of our inability to love each other, and therefore as evidence that perhaps Jesus wasn’t the Christ, the Son of God, after all.

Maybe the Affirmation proved in an unintended way – a less-than-earth-shaking number of signers, ultimately – that what we share in common belief is so much more important than what we do not share in common opinion.

Postscript: Don’t use the old URL for the Christian Affirmation. It evidently was allowed to expire, or was hacked by German-language porno promoters. Oh, and Howard Norton is signed up twice.

The Lost Act of Worship

I’m going out on a limb here, but recently I’ve only been able to focus on one “act” of worship in the New Testament … that is, one thing that is physically done in connection with the word worship:

Bowing down.

Yup, that’s right. Worship in spirit and in truth when you worship. Offer your body as a living sacrifice, your spiritual act of worship. Sing when you’re happy. Sing and edify others. Pray without ceasing and in the Spirit. Speak in tongues and interpret and prophesy when you’re gathered. Read a bit of scripture. Commune at the table. Give from the heart as you’ve purposed. Give verbal praise to God, which was done in the temple, in the synagogues, in the streets and in the country – among other contexts in the scriptures. All good things to do. All good things to do in several different contexts, alone and together; in big groups or small; on Sunday or not. (That’s more than 5 acts of worship already, isn’t it? – Though I guess my fellowship isn’t real big on tongues and interpretation, either…)

All things that are good to do together, when gathered and especially on the first day of the week; that makes it handy to do them.

But the one physical thing to do as a part of worship that keeps popping up in scripture is bowing down, kneeling, falling on one’s face, doing obesiance. No matter how it’s phrased, it’s consistently there.

Here’s a short list, just from the New Testament:

That’s a very short list. Search Bible Gateway for “knee” and “kneel” in the New Testament, and you’ll find even more. Because kneeling was a physical way, in almost every instance, for those people to express their humility, brokenness, even shame of themselves; and their respect, need, and/or request of the God they came before, often in the person of Jesus.

It doesn’t seem to be limited to one culture; to Jews only, and not to Gentiles; to earthly creatures, and not to heavenly beings.

It doesn’t seem to be limited by time to one era; to the law and prophets only, and not to anno Domini.

It doesn’t seem to be limited by circumstance to one context: to church only, but not in the street or at home or at work.

I won’t go into it all again; I’ve blogged about it before, not quite a year ago.

What I will do is confess.

I’ve been more conscious of kneeling and faithful to the practice of it, especially when beseeching God in public or private prayer – but I’ve been holding back. I’ve been falling to ONE knee. I’m not a big fan of the “command, example, inference” hermeneutic, but if I were … I’d have to say my approach to God is still not scriptural. The word is almost always plural – “knees,” not “knee” – when used in scripture.

But in a larger hermeneutic – the hermeneutic of the heart – I think my single bent knee is an expression of half-knee’d faith and a half-hearted prayer life. I want it to be double-kneed (smiting against each other as in the case of Belshazzar when necessary!).

I want it to be full-hearted, in spirit and in truth.

I want it to express the faith that if I get down on both knees – even at fifty and after knee surgery on the right one – God will give me the strength to stand again. Even if that strength comes at the hand of a brother or sister nearby … or even a complete stranger.

Because I really believe it does no good to express something that’s not in in your heart … any more than it is to have something in your heart for God that you will not express in a way He’s described so many of His beloved ones doing.

Is that silly? Am I picking nits and swallowing camels here?

Or is this really the lost act of worship?